Jeanette (Prysiaznuik) Shewchuk
Jeanette (Prysiaznuik) Shewchuk

Book Blog - Grief

(posted on 6 Dec 2019)

I spent most of my life trying to understand human behaviors, not fully understanding how our innate selves could be so self-serving and  non- empathetic. The world seem to contain so much pain with no distinct resolution. It just seemed to repeat itself with generation after generation.

 The sudden and unexpected death of my husband was my breaking point and the "enough is enough" moment; I needed to know why all this pain existed. I could not understand how God could stand by and allow humanity's suffering, or as some as would suggest, intentionally create it. Nothing made sense to me; this world appeared foreign and ugly.

Everyone's beliefs and behaviors brought such sorrow to me. I was observing a world of mind-controlled zombies, firmly imbedded in this insane space. I needed to find an escape from this place of pain, fear, guilt and sorrow. I wanted to get off the birth and death cycle permanently and was determined to learn how to accomplish it.

Everyone's journey is different.  Life takes many turns, many roads. What may be a wake up call for some, may end up being simply a bump on the road for others. We must strive to understand there is a pattern in life which will lead to a greater perception and a remembrance of one's True Reality. I ventured on a journey of self-discovery.  Who am I, why am I here, why would God allow his "children" to suffer so much?