Jeanette (Prysiaznuik) Shewchuk
Jeanette (Prysiaznuik) Shewchuk

Book Blog - Grief

 

I was not a stranger to grief. Over the years I had lost many family members along with a number of friends. The funeral home was starting to be too uncomfortably familiar. 

 At that time in my life, there was the necessity of having to continue with day to day issues; I didn't have the time to dwell on the loss, nor did I have the desire to search more deeply into the mysteries of life and death.

It wasn't until I lost my husband of 40 years, to a boating accident, that I desperately want to heal not only the pain of my loss, but also the pain of life.

The weight of the intense pain in my chest was relentlessly suffocating.  I searched for anything that could give me some relief, not really finding any adequate answers or even temporary solutions that could lessen the pain.

One day, a documentary on the television- a PBS channel -  interrupted my constant crying ; I sat quietly for two hours listening to Wayne Dyer's words "If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at will change". 

I desperately wanted to change the things I was looking at, which was complete heart-break and despair.